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Hi, I'm Catnip, I'm 28 and a lesbian from Liverpool. If you've spent any time at all wandering about my site, then you probably already know quite a bit about me and my interests, but this section is to fill in some gaps, share some secrets and generally pretend your lives have been immeasurably enrichened by reading this (I can dream, can't I?) me me me... As a person I'm sensual and loving, independant but I need plenty of hugs, sympathetic and cynical, a good friend and a good listener. I hate being betrayed though, I expect those close to me to be as committed to our friendship as I am, and am most easily hurt by thoughtlessness or lack of understanding from those I trust deeply That was a secret, intimate moment, wow...! I feel myself to be well-loved in this life. Which is nice... coming out... This is always the big part of lesbigay pages, how it was being a child, knowing you were different... well, I grew up straight (or maybe just stupid, I never realised quite why I was so taken with certain of my girl friends...). Looking back I can see an awful lot of times I felt attracted to women in films and on tv, but I never gave it that much thought - after all, I liked the occasional man as well, though it was harder to find fanciable men. Sometime around 18 or 19 I finally admitted to myself that I did more than just "like" Julia Roberts, then later I realised I was bi and then finally, in 1996, after spending time with some really great lesbians online it registered that at long last I'd figured out the big secret. Being gay, loving women, is one of the best things in my life. The webpages are pretty much an affirmation of that, my version of shouting from the rooftops, I guess... so, a little background... I'll dismiss the first 18 years out of hand, I feel like a totally different person now and besides, you'd all get very *very* bored, I'm quite sure! 1990. I went to St Andrews University in Scotland to do my German degree, a five year course in total, including a year spent in the small town of Wilhelmshaven in Northern Germany. That was a fun year, I became fluent in the language, made some very good friends, got to travel to lots of places, eat some great food and living on my own taught me a lot about my strengths and weaknesses. (I also learnt to make a little money go a long way!). St Andrews is a great place, tiny and beautiful, and everyone was so friendly, in my first year it was hard to get to lectures for the number of people I would stop and chat with en route... I met some great people there, special people who still mean a lot to me. I guess you could call me an academic - I loved having the chance to study, all those books in the library waiting for me, I went to other peoples lectures, read their course books. In my first year, at least. Later I found there were other fun things to do as well as study ::smiles:: I must be one of the few people who actually positively and actively *enjoyed* writing their dissertation (on the novel Ahasver by Stefan Heym, if you want to know, focussing on the religious aspects... fascinating research). next... I graduated in 1995 with an MA Honours degree in German - I had studied Russian at one point, but somewhere along the way in Germany my Russian just sort of seeped out of my head... it's probably drifting around somewhere, lost and confused, so if you come across it, send it home so I can take care of it. Sometime after that I got involved with a project to teach old people computers, plus signed up for a Biblical Hebrew course, some of which I ended up teaching... now... I'm pretty ill just now, so I spend a lot of time online, generally making webpages, but also making friends, something I seem to be very good at indeed. I've started my own web design company, specialising in charity sites. You can find out more by visiting the Catnipblue Design site. I'm currently teaching myself C programming which is great fun... yep, true geekdom is mine. Just wait till I start experimenting with Linux..! books, games, music, stuff! I used to sneer at 'puter games but ever since I tried Quake I've been hooked, and not only spend a lot of time playing games, I also review them for my friend Steve's site, Gamer Grand Central. For those quiet moments, there are some excellent online word games around. I love Blocktionary and have made some good friends while playing and chatting. Recently, friends and I started a new team for playing another game, Acrophobia. Visit our team website, and maybe join us! I love action games best though, especially Heretic II & Unreal, as well as pinball and some adventure games, though they tend to need more thought. I'm at my happiest racing round pretty environments brandishing a big sword and hacking people apart with it. I'm sure there's some interesting pyschological significance to that, but who gives a damn? ::smiles:: My favourite little gadget is my Gameboy Color. I take it everywhere, and am addicted to, of all strange things, a *farming* game, Harvest Moon GB. I love getting the little female farmer scurrying around planting things, taking a plunge in the hot springs and caring for her cat and horse. Cute! So obsessed am I indeed that there is an entire website devoted to the GBC, Gameboy DX. I'm nothing if not thorough about such things... I love to read, will happily devour a book more than do anything else, my current best authors are Elizabeth Moon, her female characters are strong and independant, plus Lois McMasters Bujold, whose Miles Vorkosigan books I just discovered. I'm a keen SF&F person, love Anne McCaffrey's Pern books, David Eddings' Belgariad, Terry Pratchett... the list is endless! The one book I want everybody to read though is
A stunning crime novel, the sensual prose and the characterisation make it one of the best I ever read. The writing makes you feel the sensation of warmth on skin, the play of muscles in a body, the wind playing with strands of hair... fantastic. My musical tastes are pretty varied (quite apart from this strange fascination I have with David Bowie...) but include:
I also like Led Zeppelin, Pink Floyd, Nick Drake, Joni Mitchell and countless others - I'm a sucker for a pretty tune and some well-crafted lyrics (though I must admit I like Natalie Imbruglia mainly because she is so darned *cute*!) Other cute things are the Playstation game Spyro the Dragon, bears (I'm trying to wean myself off my bear addiction) and several of my str8 friends whose names I'm not about to mention... the rest... Dragons. Most definitely dragons.
Lets see, what else? Politics? None.
Such a ramble, have I said enough? Have I said too much? Ah well, who knows?
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